"Welcome to my Inner Expressions of My Psyche "
This Is My first time to create a blog ,so I may need a little guidance on how some of these applications work. I created this to express my passion for Music ,Art, and Dance. In return I wish to meet others just like me that I can share some of my experiences and hope to make some lifelong friends. Through the use of this blog I will upload video's expressing how I sense the world around me and the many ways I express myself through the arts. I decided to post my videos of me and my hula hoops, this is what I do for a great aerobic workout which is fun. I love to draw ,Dance ,and spend time in nature.
Friday, July 23, 2010
Trying to make sense of everything
I am writing this hoping that some of the things I am experiencing someone else is having similar experiences. Well lets just say my dreams have become increasingly lucid and time seems to be going so much faster. Everything seems like a dream inside of a dream looking in. In my dreams I even appear wearing what I went to sleep in! Emotions run very deep ;disciplining myself to become aware of how my emotional status effects a circumstance.My whole life here I have been haunted by Rage, Depression , restlessness and Chronic Fatigue. Just recently this fatigue has gotten to the point where I find it very difficult to be a functional person in the working world. It comes in waves hitting me so hard that I like leave my body. Sensations I never thought were possible have struck me hard not dissipating. Sensations of intense tingling almost electrical surges run throughout my body.My feet feel like cords being pulled as if I were a puppet being controlled remotely by this outer force.What could this be and how do I make it stop? This sensation is at the bottom of my feet and my palms a push pull sensation of electricity. This sensation is a bit of a pain in the ass never seems to rest "its amplifying!"I feel so different from other beings on this planet leaving me in a deep emotional state.Intense hallucinations ,seeing sound, seeing thoughts ,seeing Qi, projecting chi, OBEs, NDEs, and other worldly experiences have happened to me for about ten years. I have always felt alienated from others and this being said has left me feeling very alone and hard to relate to other people in there 20s. I wonder if my dreams are alternate realities and if I can just hit a remote control and chose which one of these dreams I want to manifest. The other day I was sitting on an island ;I looked up to the sky a big cloud came zooming in then down so i was like what might this be and to my surprise a very define figure appeared in this cloud it was I want to say human like and was just observing me with it's hand on it's chin as if it were in a very deep thought while observing me. I was like wtf?so I kept watching then I felt as if I was remote viewing and at the same time being remote viewed by multiple beings. How could this be and what do I learn from this?Was I creating what was appearing in the sky? This was not my first time seeing people,places,beings,and other creatures in the sky. All I have to do is go outside and holy shit!Everything is vibrating and breathing the tress the flowers even the rocks emit all kinds of colors and vibrations. When I walk barefooted I feel like all my energy centers in my feet like connect to this intelligent energy field. The sensations feel like I am having acupuncture throughout my whole body ,but more prominent in my feet as if the energy is like being pulled out and other energy is moving in. Does everyone in life experience these sensations when they reach a certain age? i know that my mom feels the magnetism from the moon. If anyone has had similar experiences are could tell me what they think might be going on that would be awesome feedback. :)
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